Hypothesis

I avoided getting stress and phobia

Today I was given 100+ pages document to give a time estimate. When I down loaded the file I started having fear. I felt a sort of stress, a discomfort, a fear of unknown and etc.

But I managed myself to keep normal. I bring back my emotions to normal. I imagine it is an easy task. This task will disappear like previous task. I listen to music. I removed the fear of failure finally. The document tension loaded into my head was unloaded and replaced with good music and happy day dreams. I develop an enthusiasm towards the document to be read.

Then I start reading the document. My mental break is relaxed. I ease out myself. The document is much easy to read than I afraid.

Meantime I meet my Project Manager. While discussing with her, I came to know she already completed the document. But she took the time how much she need and did not get tense or stressed out like me. She did not have fear of unknown. Just like that she read the document.

Earlier I thought giving proposals or reading long document gives tension or stress. So I did not like that type of tasks. After meeting her I realized that it is my psychological responses to the work which creates stress but not the 'work'.

I was having a fear of creating wrong estimates. I was hesitating to ask more time to analyze the requirement in the long document. I was urging to complete the document as early as possible.

My Project Manager was not having fear of wrong estimates. She expresses what is right to her. If she needs more time she was ready to ask more time to complete the quote. She is not having any feeling of urgency to complete the document. Moreover she is managing 5 to 6 projects, whereas me nothing.

It is not the work load which gives me stress, it is my psychological reflex to the situation gives me stress and tension. As long as you perceive the situation exactly as it is or little as possible then you will not have stress. As long as you do not stuff thing in the head, no tension or stress. Stuff only happy and pleasant things in the head.

As long as your head is empty, I mean nothing is boiling there or you are not obsessed by anything you can do multi-tasking and work like anything. Change yourself then things will change.